I actually sat here staring at the keyboard for 10 minutes unable to compose my thoughts. I wanted to come on and give a quick update, yet felt that "quick" seemed so inadequete at this point.....I want to thank everyone who has left me messages, emails and personal notes. I also want you to know how much the support has lifted me in comfort. Never underestimate the prayers and love of bloggers in a crisis I always say....well, I guess I really didn't always say that. But, I can know bask in the truth of it.
On Thursday, I found out that I have stage III breast cancer. I will meet with my onocologist on Monday and have further tests to see if things have ventured further out of the neighborhood of my breast and lymph nodes. My hope is it hasn't. This will be the last of the "waiting game" hurdles I have to cross, before my fight begins.
In the meantime, after some tears, shock and despair, I have deciding that I will kick cancer's ass in the showdown of all showdowns. I am determined not to let this diagnosis stop me from living my life, laughing with my children, and making fun of reality shows. I received a book called "No Place Like Hope" and I bought the book "Crazy Sexy Cancer Survivor". They both embody the place where I want my mind to be right now. And, athough it sounds trite, laughter really is the best medicine for me right now. That and crafting. Aside from spending time with my kids, working on art in this moment has never felt more right. I still plan on doing my art fair on December 7th since I most likley I won't be starting chemo until after that.
So with that said, I will be back soon to blogging. I have some picture of our presurgery "night of a thousand margaritas" dinner. As well as some funny stories about my pre op experiences......no one can make me laugh harder than my best friends Annette & Gail. They had me cracking up before, during and after. Who else would sit with you the day after surgery and watch Quacker Factory and Real Housewives of Atlanta for three hours straight and make you laugh so hard you pull a stitch.....
Laughing, crafting and being sarcastic is still a part of who I am. I refuse to let anything invade my body and take that away from me. Never.
I'll talk to you soon.....Karin