...whatever 'it' is. What have you been procrastinating about and dragging your heels to do? Does it concern your studio space like tidying up maybe or rearranging your desk or painting those walls in that wonderful new colour? Yes...Yes it is!!! Maybe you need to face something else like that awesome idea that has you sleepless at night because your inner critic has you chickening out planting doubts in your head? Yep...this too!! Or maybe it is a whole lot of unfinished projects.....how did you know!??!, a letter that needs to be sent... yep, yep, yep, that tool needs buying.....I've needed a new wire cutter for weeks.
Even though I can answer a resounding yes to all of the above, I have to say that since I have started blogging and made a committment to being creative at least once a day, I have noticed a change in my productivity as well as my creativity. Yes, yes, YES....I still have Christmas gifts that have turned into Valentine gifts that are now going to go under the auspices of HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY! And, I'm fully aware this is something that I still have to work on (so all friends and family who I know are reading this, you will someday get your stuff!). It's that, and, also moving myself toward feeling like an artist and designer again. When I was designing my baby layettes and picture frames, I felt more like a worker on a production line than a designer. When you work on your own and do wholesale, it somehow turns more into getting that product out the door to the stores than dreaming up new ideas. Nowadays, I am truly starting to feel more like an artist again. However, I struggle with the feeling of where I belong in the world of art and design. Does the world really need a new jewelry designer? Do my collage & paper designs have a place next to all the other wonderfully talents artist out there? I think that is my biggest hurdle to overcome right now. My "IT". I remember when I was doing my baby clothing and I would read about other designer who set up shop. I would read how they got started because they were desperately searching for a cute burp cloth that was nowhere to be found on the face of the earth. And, I thought, first off, desperately search should only be followed by a new kidney or cure for a disease for my child; not burp cloth. But, secondly, and most importantly, I do what I do because I love to do it. Not because there is necessarily a NEED for it.
So there IT is. That is what my IT is to overcome. I would LOVE to hear how other artist feel about this. Do you also struggle with it. Or is it something that eventually goes away......Or am I just a nut? (ok, don't answer that!) Let me know what you think!! I would love to hear other artist's thought on this!
